Two nights after my last blogged journal entry from 4+ years ago, I wrote this: So, the night before last I had a bit of a breakdown. I just cried and cried and talked... I can’t remember half of what I talked about. I should’ve written it down sooner. I have a really hard time remembering … Continue reading In Which I First Show Confidence and Then Not
BC – Before Children
Flashback Friday – Vinyl
It's always a neat feeling when I suddenly recall something I enjoyed as a child and realize that I likely enjoyed it as much as I did at least in part because I'm Autistic. These are generally things I enjoyed that were considered "odd" by most of my peers. Take vinyl records, for example. I grew up … Continue reading Flashback Friday – Vinyl
Clothing and Other Adornments
I have always had a bit of a love-hate relationship with clothing. On the one hand, wearing clothing is necessary to go out in polite society and clothing can be helpfully protective against the many sensory antagonists in the world. On the other hand, it can often add to the sensory issues that I already deal with- especially … Continue reading Clothing and Other Adornments
Controlling?
Moving on to elaborate about the "controlling person" bit that was briefly introduced in last Saturday's post, from my journaling ~4 years ago: The accusation that I was controlling has always baffled me. More than a couple of people have had that opinion and yet... in order to be controlling, one would actually need to … Continue reading Controlling?
I’m Not a Failure
This is the third, and shortest, excerpt from what I wrote the evening after finishing Aspergirls. Reading that book had given me a lot to think about regarding my past. It both validated my perspective/memories and gave me a great deal of hope for my future: I guess I thought that everyone else was like me but that I … Continue reading I’m Not a Failure
Rambling Thoughts
I had many rambling thoughts immediately after reading Aspergirls. I was looking at my entire life from a completely different perspective and continued journaling about a few *memories that now made infinitely more sense in light of being Autistic: My favorite number is 3, my second favorite is 6. My favorite multiplication problem is therefore 6x6 … Continue reading Rambling Thoughts
Representation – A Book About Me!
About 20 days after my first journal entry so many years ago, I wrote more. This was the day after I received my copy of Aspergirls: Empowering Females with Asperger Syndrome by Rudy Simone. Hooray for ordering books online! So, I finished reading Aspergirls before 2pm today. Pretty much read it non-stop from the minute I picked … Continue reading Representation – A Book About Me!
Lining Things Up
Before I started really digging into online accounts of what living with autism was like, I hadn't particularly thought that I lined things up. Not unusually so, at any rate. I'd mainly heard stereotypical stories of little boys lining up cars or dinosaurs instead of playing with them and that description didn't fit me particularly … Continue reading Lining Things Up
Flashback Friday – Recesses
I'm going to give a bit of positive background today: the things I enjoyed doing during recess at my various elementary schools. Some of the tangential mentions in this post aren't pleasant, but recess was a large part of my free time and I used my free time for what I wanted. At least, as … Continue reading Flashback Friday – Recesses
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