Words have been difficult again for a long time. In my mind I can often make the words, but then they won't come out or when they do come out it's not how I intended them to. So I've been rethinking about talking at all. The fact is that I do better when I don't … Continue reading Not Talking, Insert More Title Here
(I've been trying a new writing style lately, not sure how it's going to work, but it's been interesting!) Something big occurred to me last night. This was one of those realizations that can change paradigms. I realized that we, just like Sims, get really sad and tense and frustrated when we don’t get to … Continue reading Interests and What Playing the Sims Taught Me About their Importance
I'm here, I'm doing okay. Busy, tired, but finally somewhat shaken free of the severe depression I'd been in for goodness only knows how long. I've been writing regularly, just not here. People who weren't safe for me know about this blog and I was nervous. But somewhere along the way I stopped caring about … Continue reading Just Checking In!
And I very nearly wasn't. As it turns out, I've been pretty severely depressed for years now. My alleged friend in 2018 took full advantage of my depressed state and by the time I'd started dating my girlfriend last summer (yes, I'm married to a man and have a girlfriend -- maybe I'll write more … Continue reading I’m alive!
I'm still untangling some things, working through some others. My words come and go. April is always a bit rough for awareness reasons. But this April I'm figuring things out, untangling my life. I'm reading so many great books that I need to write reviews for very soon! My interests, family, and friends are constant … Continue reading Nearly a Month
Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who kept me on this plane of existence over the last few months. You ALL are priceless to me ❤ Some of you don't even know I exist (Sarah Kendzior and Andrea Chalupa, whose podcast Gaslit Nation helped me initially realize that I had been gaslit all … Continue reading Thank You for Everything
I wrote a parenting twitter thread today. The issue of public parenting came up and I have some issues with how our society views small children in public as well as generally, so I tweeted about how I handled the issue of parenting publicly with small (mostly Autistic) children, as an Autistic parent myself. The … Continue reading Autistic Parenting in Public
All week I've been mulling over how lying (either to or about me) is one of the fastest ways for someone else to bring me to a state of meltdown. I considered why that might be the case and then came across a perceptive tweet regarding another liar, the father in the #PuppetGate play, which … Continue reading Liars are Illusions or How Gaslighting Leads to Meltdowns
Misdirection is one of the oldest tricks in the book. Magicians use it to aid in their illusions and the results can be spectacular! Misdirection can also be used by abusive people who want or need to distract others from what they're up to. If you haven't yet, please check out my previous post about … Continue reading Misdirection and Abuse
I'm going to write about something that feels shameful, but I'm not going to let the feeling of shame stop me from speaking out. Because I know I'm not the only Autistic person this has been done to. This isn't even the first time I've had it done to me, which adds to the feeling … Continue reading Reckoning with Last Year’s Abuse