I was going through some of my old writings the other day and I discovered a few common themes woven throughout it all. For context, these notebooks were post-college and pre-mother: mainly 2003-2005. I wrote a lot during those 2 years and I didn't have the time or motivation to read them thoroughly, but I skimmed … Continue reading Old Writings
*A few years ago
Shelving My Research
This post contains the *last sections from the entries I journaled four years ago. It's continued from here. Anyhow! On our [recent] drive home from [the nearby Big City], I talked to [husband] about what I had been like in middle school. We weren’t friends then, but we took several classes together for two years. Apparently I was noticeably … Continue reading Shelving My Research
‘Reading’ People
It was almost exactly a month after my last journal entry when I wrote this: my third and final journal entry from four years ago. To give some context, I wrote this entry after I'd done a great deal of research into the things I hadn't known I didn't know. At this point, I was getting … Continue reading ‘Reading’ People
Being in Nature
This is the third section from the journal entry I began commenting on here. I had been spending a great deal of time being introspective and wrote about more of my memories - mainly those having to do with being in nature: I used to spend lunchtime every day in the woods when I worked at … Continue reading Being in Nature
I am not a Body Hair Activist
The title might seem to be a strange thing to declare, but I honestly thought I was a pro-body hair activist for a while. I just happened to be an odd body hair activist who didn't like to show off my body hair because I didn't want to stand out as being much more unusual … Continue reading I am not a Body Hair Activist
In Which I First Show Confidence and Then Not
Two nights after my last blogged journal entry from 4+ years ago, I wrote this: So, the night before last I had a bit of a breakdown. I just cried and cried and talked... I can’t remember half of what I talked about. I should’ve written it down sooner. I have a really hard time remembering … Continue reading In Which I First Show Confidence and Then Not
Controlling?
Moving on to elaborate about the "controlling person" bit that was briefly introduced in last Saturday's post, from my journaling ~4 years ago: The accusation that I was controlling has always baffled me. More than a couple of people have had that opinion and yet... in order to be controlling, one would actually need to … Continue reading Controlling?
I’m Not a Failure
This is the third, and shortest, excerpt from what I wrote the evening after finishing Aspergirls. Reading that book had given me a lot to think about regarding my past. It both validated my perspective/memories and gave me a great deal of hope for my future: I guess I thought that everyone else was like me but that I … Continue reading I’m Not a Failure
Rambling Thoughts
I had many rambling thoughts immediately after reading Aspergirls. I was looking at my entire life from a completely different perspective and continued journaling about a few *memories that now made infinitely more sense in light of being Autistic: My favorite number is 3, my second favorite is 6. My favorite multiplication problem is therefore 6x6 … Continue reading Rambling Thoughts
Representation – A Book About Me!
About 20 days after my first journal entry so many years ago, I wrote more. This was the day after I received my copy of Aspergirls: Empowering Females with Asperger Syndrome by Rudy Simone. Hooray for ordering books online! So, I finished reading Aspergirls before 2pm today. Pretty much read it non-stop from the minute I picked … Continue reading Representation – A Book About Me!
Mamautistic 