This is the third, and shortest, excerpt from what I wrote the evening after finishing Aspergirls. Reading that book had given me a lot to think about regarding my past. It both validated my perspective/memories and gave me a great deal of hope for my future: I guess I thought that everyone else was like me but that I … Continue reading I’m Not a Failure
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Rambling Thoughts
I had many rambling thoughts immediately after reading Aspergirls. I was looking at my entire life from a completely different perspective and continued journaling about a few *memories that now made infinitely more sense in light of being Autistic: My favorite number is 3, my second favorite is 6. My favorite multiplication problem is therefore 6x6 … Continue reading Rambling Thoughts
I Have Time
There's time. My words aren't going anywhere. I don't need to capture each one, frantically. They will still be here. I don't need to make up for those years, long ago tears. I can allow myself to catch up, it cannot happen in one thrill. Gradually let them unfold, the stories untold. All meant to be written, … Continue reading I Have Time
Representation – A Book About Me!
About 20 days after my first journal entry so many years ago, I wrote more. This was the day after I received my copy of Aspergirls: Empowering Females with Asperger Syndrome by Rudy Simone. Hooray for ordering books online! So, I finished reading Aspergirls before 2pm today. Pretty much read it non-stop from the minute I picked … Continue reading Representation – A Book About Me!
Lining Things Up
Before I started really digging into online accounts of what living with autism was like, I hadn't particularly thought that I lined things up. Not unusually so, at any rate. I'd mainly heard stereotypical stories of little boys lining up cars or dinosaurs instead of playing with them and that description didn't fit me particularly … Continue reading Lining Things Up
Off I Go
This is the continuation of excerpts from my first journal entry after beginning to learn about autism. I wrote responses from my current self to clarify or expand on what I wrote all those years ago: Apparently it’s somehow normal to be able to tell how people are feeling without them telling you. That doesn’t … Continue reading Off I Go
Everything Makes Sense
Soon after I took the online Aspie Test, I began periodically journaling privately in order to help myself remember the things I was learning and discovering. I'm going to rely fairly heavily on my journaling from that time in my next set of posts so that I can most accurately convey my thought process and feelings … Continue reading Everything Makes Sense
Flashback Friday – Recesses
I'm going to give a bit of positive background today: the things I enjoyed doing during recess at my various elementary schools. Some of the tangential mentions in this post aren't pleasant, but recess was a large part of my free time and I used my free time for what I wanted. At least, as … Continue reading Flashback Friday – Recesses
My Self Doubt and Diagnosis
As I said in my previous post, my journey towards my neurological self-discovery began several years ago. After realizing that I was quite different, neurologically-speaking, from my husband and several other friends whom I also asked to take the Aspie Quiz as control subjects, I immersed myself in reading books, taking online tests, and seeking … Continue reading My Self Doubt and Diagnosis
The Journey Begins
It was several years ago when, yet again, I was involved in an uncomfortable, badly-ending social situation that was utterly baffling to me. Normally, after situations like that, I would puzzle over them for a time and then I'd move on. Usually moving on involved making the conscious assumption that it couldn't possibly be me … Continue reading The Journey Begins
Mamautistic 