I organize my life with bags. Cloth shopping bags, primarily. I started doing this after having children. I would watch the other parents on the playgrounds and I noticed that they always seemed to have the stuff that they needed every time they went to the park. I, on the other hand, had my usual … Continue reading Organization – Bags
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Anonymous Writing and A New Name
It's no secret that I blog anonymously. That decision is not one that I've made lightly. I've given it a great deal of thought and I believe that, for now, I will continue being anonymous here. In order to better facilitate my online interactions and remain anonymous, I've come up with a pen name that … Continue reading Anonymous Writing and A New Name
Betrayal, Lies, and Dependence; one year later
For the last few weeks I've been struggling with many things. Struggling isn't unusual, of course. I think that everyone who's autistic is well acquainted with struggling often in everyday situations. But the intensity of my recent struggles has been beyond that which I'm accustomed to dealing with. I'd go so far as to call … Continue reading Betrayal, Lies, and Dependence; one year later
Parenting While Autistic – Kids’ Sports
I was reminded, while catching up with The Silent Wave's blog today, that I will soon be gearing up for a new sports-season with one of my children, whom I will refer to as "sporty-child" for this post, which is primarily about me, not them. I'm going to be extremely vague about said sport in … Continue reading Parenting While Autistic – Kids’ Sports
Flashback Friday – My Lost Stuffed Dog
Photo description: white 1980s era stuffed dog peeking out of a red backpack with blue trim. I'd had my stuffed dog for as long as I could remember. He was my constant companion nearly everywhere I went. He comforted me when I was upset and slept with me every single night. He was my very … Continue reading Flashback Friday – My Lost Stuffed Dog
Election Eve Solace
I'm spending my time on this Election Eve primarily doing things that I enjoy. Watching the kids play with legos, working on my NaNoWriMo novel, eating comfort food (tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches followed by a dessert of Frosted Flakes cereal with the whole milk on the side so the flakes don't get soggy), … Continue reading Election Eve Solace
Grieving
Content warning - death (both people and pets), grieving, depression; passing mention (no details) of being spanked/hit as a child This year, 2016, has been a particularly rough one for many people. More than a few beloved celebrities have died and many folks I know, including myself, have lost loved ones who were much closer … Continue reading Grieving
My Children’s Role
Content warning: pregnancy loss/miscarriage, no explicit details given Having children played an instrumental role in my awareness of autism. Many parents discover that they're Autistic after a child or children are diagnosed, but in my case, the reverse was true. It was brought to my attention and I suspected it of myself before my child was diagnosed. … Continue reading My Children’s Role
Flashback Friday – Imaginary Children
As a child I'd always gotten along extremely well with children who were much younger than I was and based largely on those experiences, I've pretty much always wanted to have children of my own. In fact, my longest-lasting childhood imaginary friends were my imaginary children. I had dozens of imaginary children from about the time I was … Continue reading Flashback Friday – Imaginary Children
Shelving My Research
This post contains the *last sections from the entries I journaled four years ago. It's continued from here. Anyhow! On our [recent] drive home from [the nearby Big City], I talked to [husband] about what I had been like in middle school. We weren’t friends then, but we took several classes together for two years. Apparently I was noticeably … Continue reading Shelving My Research
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