Unexpected events are largely unavoidable. Things happen, stuff comes up, plans change. I understand that. I also live with small unpredictable people, which adds another dimension to unexpectedness. I also recently learned of some insecurities on the part of my allistic (non-Autistic) husband that feed into many of the unexpected event-related difficulties in our marriage. More … Continue reading Time, Processing, and Transitions
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The Joy of Autistic Body Language
While sitting at my child's class, I sometimes can see into a different room. I often will pause in my writing or reading and watch what's happening from all the way across the building. I'm there because of my child. They decided this was their "must do" activity and we did everything in our power … Continue reading The Joy of Autistic Body Language
An Unexpected April Disclosure
In my defense, I thought I could handle it. I firmly believe that we should not need to disclose our Autistic status in order to be taken seriously when we pass along the words of other Autistics. So, I reasoned, I'd post things for April and just elevate other Autistic voices. It seemed like a great … Continue reading An Unexpected April Disclosure
(Mis)Understanding and Responsibility
Learning that I was Autistic was a daunting, overwhelming thing. On the one hand, it explained everything. Learning that I'm Autistic has been one of the best things that has ever happened to me. But, on the other hand, it's overwhelming and discouraging to think about how allistics (non-Autistics) will likely never understand and will … Continue reading (Mis)Understanding and Responsibility
Messing Up Such a Simple Thing
Sometimes I'll be going along, doing fairly well, and then I'll mess up again. In a big way. Patterns in my life often emerge from new situations and experiences because they aren't really new. These are things that have been happening my entire life, but that I never had the ability to describe or explain … Continue reading Messing Up Such a Simple Thing
Representation in Fiction – On the Edge of Gone
Last week I finally got a lovely hard-bound copy of Corinne Duyvis' book On the Edge of Gone. It was a wonderful read! I highly recommend it to anyone who enjoys Young Adult and/or apocalyptic-type fiction. Honestly, even if you don't like those genres, if you're allistic (non-Autistic) and close to someone who's Autistic then you would … Continue reading Representation in Fiction – On the Edge of Gone
Feeling Understood
I think that one of the best feelings in the world is the feeling of being understood by someone else. Sadly, being Autistic has meant that most people in my life have completely misunderstood me the vast majority of the time. Every time I read something written by another Autistic person, I feel understood. Someone … Continue reading Feeling Understood
Flashback Friday – Undergarments
TW: Puberty stuff, body image issues, misunderstanding. Underwear has always been a difficult topic for me. It's not the wearing of it that's most problematic, in my case. Rather, the things I find most difficult are other people's attitudes and expectations about underwear. Especially when they want to have a conversation with me about those … Continue reading Flashback Friday – Undergarments
Dentist Follow-Up
I have been to the dentist around 5 times since I sent them my disclosure letter because my teeth were in very bad shape. An excellent autistic-written dentist post I came across earlier today reminded me that it's probably time for a follow-up to write about what's happened since I sent that letter. The people at the dentist's … Continue reading Dentist Follow-Up
Grocery Store Meltdown
This is a long post. Most of it was written the morning after the incident that precipitated my meltdown. It is now several days since that happened, but I'm keeping the wording mostly the same. My meltdowns seem to be getting rarer and rarer as I get older (a good thing!), so I won't have as … Continue reading Grocery Store Meltdown
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