It's a bit of a long saga, but this has felt absolutely magical to live through. CW: breastfeeding, miscarriage/bleeding, moving house, past trauma, lack of medical care due to finances -- mostly just brief mentions. The Lost Manuscript In November of 2008, when I decided to try National Novel Writing Month for the very first … Continue reading Manuscript Serendipity: from 2008 until 2022
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Thank You for Everything
Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who kept me on this plane of existence over the last few months. You ALL are priceless to me ā¤ Some of you don't even know I exist (Sarah Kendzior and Andrea Chalupa, whose podcast Gaslit Nation helped me initially realize that I had been gaslit all … Continue reading Thank You for Everything
Work, Energy, & Autistic Inertia
CW: some internalized ableism regarding productivity and energy levels. I was (text) chatting with an Autistic friend a while back about how some of our abilities can make us appear to be far more functional to others than we actually are because we do some things that most people would find difficult to do, but … Continue reading Work, Energy, & Autistic Inertia
One Year of Blogging
I completely missed the actual day of my diagnosis anniversary earlier this month š¦ But today is the anniversary of when I started blogging here! This is going to be a recap of the year type of post, I think, looking at my life post-diagnosis. Being part of the online Autistic Community has helped my … Continue reading One Year of Blogging
Eugenics
TW/CW: Eugenics, nazis, murder, autism parents (not the same as parents of Autistic children), cures, ableism. For multiple reasons I'm concerned about modern eugenics and how enticing it seems to be to the group of people known in the Autistic Community as "autism parents." I witnessed a disturbing amount of enthusiasm about genetic testing from … Continue reading Eugenics
Number 100
This is a first for me. I've never written a blog this personal and I've certainly never written 100 posts on a blog before. My previous attempts at blogging, without knowing I was Autistic or perhaps suspecting but not really having that acceptance or understanding yet, all fell apart very quickly. It's impossible to write … Continue reading Number 100
Flashback Friday – Planning Everything
[image description: blue sky and cloud background. Text reads: "I picture myself running and my distress pursuing close behind. I will run at top speed if I'm around any other people, but eventually I get tired and the distress keeps getting bigger with longer legs until it can easily reach me. I try to ensure … Continue reading Flashback Friday – Planning Everything
Uniqueness and Late-Diagnosis
I've heard it said by allistics (non-Autistics) that people who are late-diagnosed Autistic just "want to be unique" or "think we're special." This is sometimes even theorized as the reason we go in to be evaluated as adults. Let's ignore the fact that many of us struggled, floundered, and failed for many years before gaining … Continue reading Uniqueness and Late-Diagnosis
Old Writings
I was going through some of my old writings the other day and I discovered a few common themes woven throughout it all. For context, these notebooks were post-collegeĀ and pre-mother: mainly 2003-2005. I wrote a lot during those 2 years and I didn't have the time or motivation to read them thoroughly, but I skimmed … Continue reading Old Writings
Barefooting
Barefooting is one of my greatest joys in life. One of my favorite things! To me, bare feet are liberated feet. I can easily walk either on my toes or toe-first,Ā which are delightful ways for me to walk. I love to feel the dirt, carpet, grass, sand, etc underneath my feet. Such a different feeling … Continue reading Barefooting
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